Second Finally

Well here we are i am writing my second posting.... finally. and this is just as depressing as the last one.

Simply put the world feels like its collapsing. My heart has become a yo-yo to him. Throwing me down and away saying he needs space. Then two days later pulling my heart string back saying he loves me and wants to just try and think about things saying that I am extremely important to him and that nothing in the world would make him happier than to spend for ever. Then a short while later, he threw me down again. Saying " there is something missing and i just need some space to think some things threw." Seriously what does that even mean if you need to figure something out why don't you ask me for some freaking help!? but this wasn't the end of the yo-yo came with my heart. Last night he called me on the phone saying he thinks we are going to get back together and I of course was extremely enthusiastic I mean I would have married this guy a week ago in a heart beat. but followed by the i think we are getting back together was what I was dreading the most.... he said that he needed to get somethings out of the way. When i asked what i found out that he wanted to see some of his ex gf's. Like seriously? Why!?

Any who the stress and anxiety with this driving me insane and have told next to no one. I hope that this will allow me to take a step back and just look at this situation, you know like really evaluate if he is ment for me. Becasue sure we have never really fought or had any issues until now. And if you know my dating history that is quiet a change from the every day bickering between me and JL.


for those of you who have my number and aren't busy i would love to talk :)